A few times I have been left disappointed with family and learnt that you can really only ever depend on yourself and no one else – that if you want something done, do it yourself. I do not expect anything from my family, as I have never received anything from them that warrants me to do so. I have faith, trust and devotion to my parents and in my family that is my own pillar. I don’t like my family, apart from one set being an Aunty and an Uncle and a cousin. I tolerate them, see them when I have to and do not make an effort.
With this wedding thing, I kind of hoped I would get something out of them, that a wedding would bring out the best and for pre and post wedding I would be able to have a family that cared. But no. Nothing has changed.
I don’t really know why I expected them to care now or why I actually wanted them to.
But I have my parents and that is all that matters really as they make up for everyone with all their love and support.
With this wedding thing, I kind of hoped I would get something out of them, that a wedding would bring out the best and for pre and post wedding I would be able to have a family that cared. But no. Nothing has changed.
I don’t really know why I expected them to care now or why I actually wanted them to.
But I have my parents and that is all that matters really as they make up for everyone with all their love and support.
